Janet Jackson has revealed that she’s been forcing herself to deal with the death of her brother Michael Jackson after suppressing her emotions for over a year. In an interview with The Today Show, which will air on
Friday (February 11th), Janet said, “I was finally able to (start grieving). I was in Paris and it was one of those moments. At some point, you have to move on and I’m trying to do that and it (is) really difficult. There’s still not a day that goes by where I don’t think about him. Not one day, not one day.” She continued, “I’m kind of pushing myself, forcing myself to a certain degree to get over this because it’s not the healthiest. I just spent the night (in Paris) watching all his videos and listening to his music. There were moments when I cried and moments that made me laugh. It was good for me; I needed it.”
Janet also revealed that she may have been suppressing her feelings to be strong for her family. She said, “I guess out of everyone in my family, I never had that moment to cry about his death. I don’t know if it was trying to shield the pain, or just trying to hold it all together because I saw that everyone else around me was falling apart. (I) never (took) that moment to grieve, really grieve, even at the surface. For now, yeah, I did (grieve). A year had passed and I hadn’t.” Michael Jackson died after suffering a cardiac arrest brought on by an overdose of anesthetic Propofol in June 2009.